It’s official…I’m in love with a vampire.
So I did it. i finally jumped on the Twilight train. I took the leap to find out what all the fuss was about and now…I am love with a vampire. Crap. I normally hate fiction especially romantic or sci-fi books, but Twilight has seriously turned my world upside down. For the last 4 days I have made the conscious decision to abandon my normally ambitious social life and I have opted for pajamas, cheap wine and Edward Cullen for entertainment. To be honest, I couldn’t be happier with that decision. In these last few days I have finished ‘Twilight’ and New Moon and I am seriously considering cashing in my vacation time at work to finish the series.
These books have renewed the hope of millions of women for unconditional true love. As bitter as I am, I have found myself rooting for Bella and Edward and I swear I was almost in tears when he left her in New Moon. For those of you who have read these books, you know exactly what I am talking about…we get so caught up in the possibility of true unequivocal vampire love that it is almost impossible to stop reading. I find myself thinking about Bella and Edward while I am driving and I am anxious to get home every evening to continue reading about their fairytale romance. Geez, this is annoying. For the longest time, I poked fun at all of the ‘twilighters’ out there, who would read incessantly and talk nonstop about vampires and werewolves. I laughed so hard and couldn’t understand why these books had such an impact on girls and women. For that I am sorry. I totally get it…I hate myself for it…but I get it. Does this change the way I feel about love? Not really. Does it make me want this kind of love? Sure. Do I believe that this kind of love exists? Not so much. Maybe this is because I am angry and cynical and while it is nice to dream about the kind of relationship that Bella and Edward have, I am not getting my hopes up. Their relationship is pretty perfect..minus the vampire/mortal dilemma. Edward is perfect in every way, brutally honest about his feelings, sensitive, protective, polite and disgustingly charming. Where can I find my Edward? I’m curious, if a guy like him exists…can I give him my digits?! Ultimately, I have to remind myself that this is all fiction and that while Edward Cullen may very well be the most perfect vampire man ever…he is made-up and he will never climb through my bedroom window…and this makes me way sad!!! 
